I was once alone Lonely, you might say As a kid, I was bullied Had no friends And saw the life in having them Grew up got some friends But there was still a void So I started forcing myself to have love interests Once I found a real one I didn’t force it, it forced itself on me I thought it was someone I could trust So I gave it a shot Turned out to be a lust And it hurt Got out of it, lonely again But not so much Not like before Not to the point where I’d want or crave Someone to hold But I did crave Something Craved home I was lonely But not wanting anyone So I started to search for what I wanted A home The sun glaring from the window A smile without trying For the first time in ages I started praying And it felt good I remembered when my mom said “You look in every door For what you need To fill that void But the only door everyone tells you about That’s the one that you’d ignore It’ll come a day When you knock it God will answer It’ll be what you were looking for” The void started disappearing It stopped eating me alive My happiness started feeling consistent Even when there was a mess around My head was up in the cloud Saying “God, I know you have my back” He Started being my home My house started to feel A bit warm It was cold before I stopped craving someone’s touch And I started wanting my own My own intimacy My own time My own love And frankly, it feels nice Started taking care of myself Wearing less makeup each day Till there was nothing at all Not because I was too depressed to put it on But because I feel pretty with it off Started taking care of myself I built the walls But there Was a door Except that I didn’t want to let anyone in When they knocked It’s peaceful here It’s happy There’s a coffee smell and breakfast on the table There’s a stain glass windows with the sun coming through it There is a bird flying around our home There’s my sisters, my mom, my brothers,my dad! What else could I want more? So I’m not sorry if you knock , and there’s no answer I’m not sorry at all If you want You could wait But I don’t recommend it Cause I’m not planning on opening the door Cause I’m happy I’m me .I’m everything I’ve been looking for